I don't like writing about myself...what??!!

It's kinda funny that I have a blog but I hate writing about myself. I'm trying to apply for all these scholarships for school - but I always get stuck when they want you to write a paragraph outlining volunteer activities, hobbies, academic achievements....I think it's cause I have none. I don't really know what to write about on here, but since I have it, I feel obligated.

So I've been hanging out with Kenny a lot lately. It's weird, but cool - I guess I never thought I'd ever see anyone from high school again.

Ugh! I'm trying to lose weight and I blew it tonight...but Primetime is soooooo good!!!

Johnny and Erin are kinda together - shouldn't bother me, but it does. And apparently anything I say to one person gets back to the other. What happened to privacy? Oh yeah, the internet. I mean I'm happy for them, I guess. I've just always felt like Johnny and I had something BUT I was too fat or not into metal enough or something was always holding him back. Oh well. Fuck it, right? And I really miss hanging out with Erin, but I don't really think she wants to kick it. She's said I have first dibs on her time, but I've seen her once and he has seen her 3 times. I guess I shouldn't sweat it. What friends are they if they don't even care? Too bad I have feelings. I shouldn't even care - I'm married. Nick and I were talking about how I have projected my wants of Ben onto Johnny. That makes sense. Too bad Ben hates Johnny. I like assholes. Damnit!! It's funny - I was drunk and I did my stupid texting thing and so I apologized today and fuckin Johnny was like, "I didn't think it was that big of a deal, but I heard you were complainin about me." Dude, I don't know why Erin has to tell him everything. Well, I guess I told her what he said, but fuck.........fuck it! That's what I say!

I said I was gonna clean the house today - got one load of laundry in and the computer room vacuumed. sad. I fail.

I'm kind of rambling because I had a Dr. Pepper today and now I'm awake - and I should be asleep but I can't, so to keep me occupied instead of playing tower defense games, I'm writing.

Ok, done.